First of all, I don't care whether I'm doing the right thing. All I am dead sure is I should have done this ages ago, way back a century. Laugh, amused or whichever, I'm still gonna say my piece. Some might think that I'm digging on old wounds but that's not my intention. It shed a light to me that I must do a closure, a sort of finale in a sober form.
And it started last night, I was searching on the net out of curiosity and found out bout your blog. You wrote about us, I read on. You wrote about the tough times without me, I had to read on to find out cause I've never bothered to figure your thoughts out. I went backwards, to the cradle. There's more about us, more bout you and what you wanted me to know.
Reading on, I did messed up, big time. Some of the posts were locked, that instant I wanted to believe that you might be writing about me half of the time. Wishful thoughts. You wanted me to be happy still despite the circumstances, you were the best girlfriend without the cutting part. I'm not afraid to people knowing this, I've always save the best for my own knowledge, mine alone. Your sarcasm to me, a trait which I realized I desired it all along. I read on, we quarrelled, you gave in. I always knew it, yet I couldn't show my thankfulness.
I'm sorry for making you wait, this whole meaningless wait whereby I couldn't make up my mind. It's not the coincidental chance upon your site which makes me want to tell you all that, I mean a particular random night, I dreamt of us. I woke up and texted 427, hoping that you might be on the other line, but to no valid. I was ready to speak. Right now I'm glad that I can even write all my thoughts here.
I hope you're fine now, I mean I want you to be fine. I guess I did make a wise choice in disappearing for you not to harbor any thoughts of us being back. You will be a wonderful and awesome girlfriend, and you're pretty the way you're, no matter what your mom had told you before. I don't say it out but I always relate back to the times we had for the most genuine love, deep within. Yes, I wish you the very best for whichever chapter you're at or your next.
Thank you for being one of my chapters, the very first and utmost memorable.
Love,
Mr Brightside
