IMAGINE THERE IS A PICTURE

2012-02-15T00:23:00.002+08:00

so, this marks the start of a chapter.

something is brewing.

shall, we not?

2012-02-12T20:39:00.003+08:00

birthdays and year ends are somewhat the same.

Certainly to me, age meant nothing but just a number. I might even detest the whole idea of celebrating my own birthday, although I do understand how the rest sees the need for it to be memorable.

Then comes the need to reflect, something I adore doing before bed.

I must say that life's pretty tough, yet there's always a choice to close one eye on em'. Boy do I condemn myself all the time, making the wrong move and suffer the consequences. Just for the few seconds of excitement. The hype to do insane acts have died down, unfortunately. Not sure if it's gonna be a right thing to do, time will tell. It might.

I'm not sure if you'd noticed this, but don't you feel that time is moving so fast?

Well, I used to have my birthdays during chinese new year and now? Cny's in january. See the difference? Anyhow, valentine's day pretty near. Yeah, I belonged to the "I don't really give a shit about Valentine's day" category yet in fact, we can't deny that we actually give it a thought somewhere, somewhat.

Totally depicts one of the chapters of my early life.

Had this chat with one of my close bud recently. We sorta realized that we are all living our own life now, or will be soon. Forwarding towards future and a partner. I thought it was inevitable to head that direction. I'm gonna try to cast that whole partner or related shit out.

No, I wasn't forcing nor was I trying out a new test of endurance.

Somehow, I do not want things to be too amplified.

Somehow, simplicity's enough.

Somehow, I do not need this many of Yous.

Who knows, something might come out of this?

till then,

goodnight.

lighter, lighter note

2012-02-02T00:36:00.002+08:00

I can definitely write better when I'm in some short of relationship.

Better in a sense of being more inspiration.

In fact, I write best when I'm chasing a particular someone.

I could just chase for the sake of writing something interesting, but I shall not.

Sinner goes to hell, remember? (though I'm not a believer)

Love is beautiful, as beautiful as your face when you were young.

Love is also superficial, as superficial as our character.

Love must always be insane, crazy or even as "what-the-fuck" mode.

I adore it, but I would not commit to it.

But, "I love you" will remains true to my heart as long as I've said it, be in coincidentally or "what-the-fuck-was-I-thinking."

Life, as

2012-02-02T00:01:00.003+08:00

I have not read 1Q84, yet. F

just reading some of the quotes already making me go crazy over it. I'm not being philosophic but just someone who wants imaginations to run wild.

"I can think what I want as many times as I want. This could be the 72,001st time, but what’s wrong with that? As long as I’m alive, I can think what I want, when I want, any way I want, as much as I want, and nobody can tell me any different."

If books could spice up my life, I will bloody hell read em'. We certainly don't look like people who read such crap, but you would be so surprised to know MAN.

Been waiting to write about this:

Gods, religions.

I have my fair share of doubts. I'm certainly not weird or in any means trying to offend any thing, spiritually. It might just be cruel to be alive, to breathe. Think of it this way; You descend on Earth, should any one of the gods be real, you live your life gambling on which is the real deal. There are SO many of em', TOO MUCH. Don't even bother to talk about going heaven if you can't even pick the right one. Should God exists, don't you think he/she is being cruel to bring you down to suffer and slammed you with various idols? Talk about fairness, some countries won't even have chance to get to know bout the REAL one. Now the question is, what's the purpose of our existence? God wants us to go heaven, ain't that all true for every gods? Humans are created by God, why let us go through the whole shit when you could just make every one not sin? Almost all gods are almighty, so why should devil exist? Simple enough, the good kills the evil. You are called God for a reason, so why are you on par with the Devil? Since you could end things once and for all, what is with the wait?

Unfortunately, none of the religion could answer this cause' it all brings down to one thing, "Faith." I am afraid we will only know the truth, in our last breath on earth. There could be no one to tell the living, because it's all dust and nothingness. Everything is so phony.

“Most people are not looking for provable truths. As you said, truth is often accompanied by intense pain, and almost no one is looking for painful truths. What people need is beautiful, comforting stories that make them feel as if their lives have some meaning. Which is where religion comes from.” (Sakigake leader to aomame)

-Haruki Murakami "1Q84"

2012-01-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

you must be smokin' me.

2012-01-19T00:46:00.002+08:00

Cause' you're freakin' amazing just the way you are.

OH babe,

this is just insane.

This sudden burst of adrenaline,

god knows why either.

This post has no meaning yet,

not now.

Probably much later.

Nights!

follow me

2012-01-03T02:39:00.003+08:00

I'm just gonna make it short,

cause work officially starts in 4hours time.

This song really gets into me, GOD KNOWS WHY.

I will post bout 2011/12 stuff next time, VERY SOON.

with love,

fellas!

la la la

2011-12-15T18:49:00.001+08:00

well i really feel like doing christmas card.

HAHAHA for the fun of it, why not!

now, who needs one?

360

2011-12-13T21:50:00.002+08:00

One of the worst mistake in the world is to try to change someone, especially when you're in a relationship. It happens too often, and usually we only noticed it towards the end. I'd my fair share of that, girls trying to change who I am. Talk about control freak. Somehow, there's this obligation to give in and change it for the "better." Being the play along kind, this kind of shit couldn't take me down. It takes time to change you know, even the slightest change. I mean, you can't change a habit overnight, can you? Most of us literally thinks that "Give me one try, I sure change!" Pretty ridiculous ain't it? First of all, you've got to be willing, till the end, not just the beginning process. Well if you're not willing or comfortable about it, let her know. Acting hero is stupid, trust me. You see, the common shits that guys have in mind is to keep their partner all to themselves. "Don't meet that tom/dick/harry best friend of yours," or "Stop hanging out with your friends so often!" I'm the pretty open minded one, I find guys wanting such restrictions to be ridiculously narrow minded. I can close one eye about male best friends, but close friends? Lady, grab a new dick. Okay back to the changes part, you gonna convince yourself first, nothing will change if you can't even pass your own stage.

been chatting with this particular person lately,

further proved me wrong that people are actually this approachable.

very philosophical, very interesting.

dont be mistaken, I have no issues in that area.

in fact, I might be pretty good in it. HAHAHA

remember I used to send christmas cards around,

now I don't even do it.

time to pick it up again, love the old school habits.

Ice cream

2011-12-12T22:03:00.004+08:00

and so I was watching this film, "More than blue."

It was so beautiful, honestly speaking. I love the plot, the twist was just awesome.

a little synopsis, it's about this dude pushing the girl to another guy cause he's dying. Yup the usual korean shit but wait, the twist is good. Not gonna reveal it, check it out yourself!

kwon sang-woo is a great actor man. How can any dude be so "wei da", like the actor in the movie man?

I guess we're sorry at certain points, but this is nothing too serious.

glad that at some point, we've made some really good decisions. That very call, made a huge difference.

i'd pick some romantic films over action-pack, especially those really old films. They were so much better! Also, they proved to provide sufficient ingredients for any of my love stories. HAHAHA WHY NOT?

And so, I'm gonna do a log cake for that christmas gathering on 25th. Wait, jason is in this shit with me too. HAHAHA. I'm not so worry bout it man, i'm pretty much into cooking anyway.

Quote:

You could be so beautiful, if you don't exist just in my dreams.

2011-12-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

Why are you still so awesome?

right at you

2011-12-10T20:34:00.004+08:00

I told you to take care of yourself.

look at this mess,

you get what you deserved for screwing around with different dudes.

Have no idea why some peeps gonna make themselves look so degrading, especially the hypocrites.

I'm not pissed, I'm forcing myself not to laugh out loud.

Then, where are your "friends" when you needed them? all words and nothing else.

damn it, I do hope someday you'll reflect.

Can't be bothered already, yo.

Don't always think so highly of yourself,

what makes you think I'm not playing along?

It's not that difficult to fake a smile,

you know right.

2011-12-07T23:44:00.002+08:00

long weekend ahead,

gonna love clearing leave.

shut up and read or scram

2011-12-06T04:14:00.016+08:00

yes, I can finally put 2011 to an ending after tonight.

Surprising someone sure ain't such easy task man.

You feel the sense of relief once you see that bloody cheeky smile,

it's like shuang daooooooooooo ttm!

I don't care already, I just post the photos.

(^O^)

known her since 14/02/2010 minus 4months,
fought for multiple times,
got scolded for zillion times,
celebrated her birthday for the 2nd time
and still chasing her.

once again,

happy belated birthday!

sweet 20+

Quote:

Stay happy, smile.

confirm, chop

2011-12-04T01:53:00.005+08:00

总有一天，我一定要追到你，

百分之一千万

一定会追到你。

Can't tell you how much I love this statement.

It says a lot about one's confidence, even in life philosophy. You know sometimes you know you might not really gonna achieve something, yet you just wanna convince yourself through "I can do it."

right, how many of you actually does that? I DO.

I make it a point to head out,

drink kopi and do some readings on Sunday.

BYE

you know,

百分之一百的肯定 here.

Quote:

You can only make yourself better,

no one else can.

2011-12-03T03:26:00.000+08:00

human behavior study.

whatever, bro

2011-12-02T07:24:00.004+08:00

You can't watch over her every time.

No doubt, I'm hell of a pissed off when I think about it. When you cant help in that situation, somehow it makes you feel more useless/incapable.

Talk about stalking one person's not enough, some even stalk their friends. What's wrong with some dudes nowadays? This is such an UNCOOL GAME PLAN. Totally have no idea what those bastards are doing, too much ego? Maybe I can teach you a lesson or two about containing it. Ridiculously immature yet I cant deny the fact that some might actually love that level of attention. It's never easy to fathom what girls have in mind.

As it draws nearer to 2012, i haven't had a clue how I wanna conclude 2011. It seems that i'm lovin' the same woman, doing the same job and playing the same freaking game. I'm glad I'm reading lots of new novels, oh yes. Murakami's the author of the year for me.

for the ladies, if you're into heels, you might want to take a look at this:
康熙來了女明星秋冬美鞋大賞

Christmas is coming, feeling especially warm under the blanket nowadays.
SIBEI COSY MAN.
Just received SA xmas parcel last night, think it's a bag or something but I can't open it till 25th!
Time to shop for xmas cards for elis, sa and ..... ^^
I should make it a point to post my own quote at the last part of the entry,
sounds good?

Quote:
If you hadn't been lovin' someone,
you hadn't been enjoying your life.

那些年，我們一起追的女孩

2011-11-23T01:22:00.004+08:00

just came back after catching a movie with dion & nicole.
"You are the apple of my eye, 那些年，我們一起追的女孩." as recommended by my colleague ziyang.
It was really fabulous, really. You shouldn't missed it.
Remember back to our secondary days, all the silly things we did in a "i love you forever" relationships? it's all in the movie. The whole, impressing a girl stuff, how reminiscing! Throughout the movie, I was having those uncontrollable smiles/smirks cause they were ALL too familiar. HAHAHA.
It makes sense to me somehow when they explained, "one can achieve a target without much efforts" meaning that being hardworking doesn't guarantee one success (somewhere there la)

"我就是幼稚才有办法追你那么久."

so,

can you love someone for that long?

make me wanna die

2011-11-14T01:13:00.006+08:00

here's a little treat to those victoria's secret lovers,

don't you just love it, the colors and everything?

the groove is just awesome, probably the only type of fashion show that allows the models to go free with their expressions! the usual ones are totally staring and acting cool, kinda motionless.

btw, I'm hooked on the starting song by the pretty reckless; Make Me Wanna Die.

alright, i wrote this entry after reading ph's tweet. HAHAHA

TOTALLY, please go have a look at her entry about this particular "steaming" hongkong movie.

>> link <<

had a long supper with bs & jas earlier on,

it was a good laugh at our friend pt.

he's just ridiculous, his jokes and philosophical talks. TOO MUCH for us to take tank already!

don't feel like sleeping man,

although tomorrow is the start of a hell week for me personally.

doing all the shit work but hell, I'm gonna stay up late!

nights!

2011-11-10T10:51:00.000+08:00

you dont need 101 reasons to love someone.

break your brain

2011-11-02T06:46:00.003+08:00

for a record,

im not with any particular person or am i chasing. so i am clueless about those names you people brought up or probably some old news cause you havent heard bout me for almost a century.

its pretty pathetic to admit that but yes, i am seeing no one and i like it this way.

now, can inspirations flow to me asap?

thank you!

i'm your shiny boy!

2011-10-30T20:31:00.005+08:00

just to prioritize,

Bon anniversaire to you (don't ask me to pronounce it)

Kind of love it that I am actually staying at home most of the time,

even though I am DYING to head out every.single.night.

It's high time that I tone down on parties, alcohols & socializing. Seriously, I will be proud of myself, just not right now. I'm like doing a hella lot of research online, despite not knowing what the hell for!

I am clueless when it started, maybe way back but I have people asking me for advice regarding this particular awkward topic. I mean, yes I would be more than willing to help anyone with r/s issues but bnf, I am impressed. However, I do enjoy listening to all their amazing out of the box drama-like stories.

What can I say? Just wear a condom.

This is my happy song for every morning w/o fail during my train rides, link-> Cupid

LOVE IT.

alright, off to gossip girls.

Don't judge me, I'm just damn interested in Chuck's role.

2011-10-29T19:57:00.000+08:00

we all have secrets,

but I will never hide anything from you.

tumblr#1

2011-10-25T15:57:00.005+08:00

I just have to do this the tumblr way.
Indeed,
she's a fireball that I could barely handle.

2011-10-25T13:18:00.004+08:00

Okay I just need to write about this.
Elis woke me up earlier in the morning, for the first time and again for the first time, we have a conversation bout her crush.
ah well, that's enough.
BAM

Your Playlist

2011-10-24T11:38:00.004+08:00

"I’m not going to say I want you to be happy with him/her.
I want you to be happy with me.
I want life to feel as grand as it did when I was with you.
More than these things, I want to know that, if I ever meet another you — someone who makes love feel huge and life feel big —I will not just run under the bed." -thoughtcatalog

I think it's pretty awesome to burn a track list of songs just to convey your feelings to someone you fancy.
I can should do that, soon.
Or I'll be cheapskate, just write down the song titles here.
-laughoutloud

who will

2011-10-24T07:33:00.000+08:00

with much considerations one fine night,
this came up to my mind.
i do have,
a group of friends that are with me for more a decade,
friends that im actually willing to lend a listening ears to,
a family which i give a damn about but never showing it,
bffs whom i scold a lot without feeling a slightest remorse,
an overseas friend who I don't mind flying over just to check it out,
quite a number of unrequited love (vice versa)
and yes the last part,
we all have someone particular whom we tried so hard not to disappoint, to give in to and ever so ready to give up everything else despite knowing that we actually have nothing much to begin with.

So,
What do you have?

subtle

2011-10-23T20:14:00.004+08:00

like finally met up with nic & paula last night for dinner.

passed them their gifts, i think it's too cute rather than vintage-like.

that two ladies just love to bicker around, still as crazy as ever.

gossiped as lil, as usual J was brought up in our conversation.

HMMM, it's just the same old shit.

as much as I want to write a rundown of our conversations,

it's too R-rated.

"I will be away from you for a while.

Away, never gone."

aww, sweet stuff.

blake lively

I'm totally in the mood to re-read all my Murakami novels.

Certainly, I do not look like someone who read books,

but never judge a book by its cover.

smirks-

limitless

2011-10-22T10:15:00.002+08:00

i've always love the idea of writing for someone i fancy.

the world doesn't revolves around you,

it revolves around her.

well, i have the tendency to do that, not to the extreme.

contrary,

was it because of the role i'm playing

that i don't stick around too much.

oh complicating and complicated.

thoughts

2011-10-22T06:26:00.000+08:00

Should have wrote earlier on! Took a short nap and all my thoughts gone hiding. Damn.

I'm still lazy to upload the trip photos. There's only less than 20 though, the rest with huiwen. I have no idea how many unglam ones man.

Guess I've been reading way too much on thoughts.com, those inspirational articles. Then earlier today, steve job's 2005 speech kind of motivates me a little. Well, he really did. I needed some kind of push to run wild, this fear's been rotting my soul no matter how many times I convinced myself "You truly only live once." It ain't bout the money, it ain't bout making it an hobby. Oh I hate the whining/ranting, I find it ridiculously redundant and waste of energy cause' nothing's done at the end of the day. Yet some times, you just gonna unleash, you just gonna clear the throat. Count it a blessing, I have the habit to switch to the brighter side of life when the world comes crashing down.

To nobody am I challenging except myself. I believe we all know our own flaws, the very significant ones, the deadly ones. I know it, I'm glad I'm taking it as a challenge to suppress them. It might not work 24/7, but its happening. As much as how much I love the whole ego stuff, I'm starting to love how it's giving in. There's no examples, I just know it's giving in.

Look. I've always been asked this question, "should I go for it, for that girl?" I'm getting sick of answering, can't you people just freakin' go for it? No one bloody knows the answer, what's the point of staying put and be in dilemma? JUST GO FOR IT, ITS POINTLESS TO THINK. What makes you think there's a specific answer when it comes to love/feelings. No, there ain't and never will there be. It's supposed to be something magical and unexplainable, something like the bermuda triangle and spaceship sightings.

Read an article bout "Bad boys", it's pretty logical to me though. You ought to know that dating someone like me will end you in some kind of misery. You know it better that I will be playing mind games and that I wouldn't reply your messages within seconds. You are prepared. What's the scariest, are the Good boys. You will never see it coming when things went wrong.
SEE, those angels are the worst crap ever! HAHAHA

Okay, my thumbs are going numb typing on blackberry qwerty keyboard. That's all folks.

With love,
You.

short gateaway - BKK

2011-10-18T16:30:00.003+08:00

HELLOOOOOOO!
damn it, it's been SO FREAKIN' LONG since I updated any entry.
LAZY TO THE MAX.
I know, my bad.

So, I just got back from a short trip to Bangkok.
2 years ago I went there to celebrate Boon's birthday, this year we're doing the same shit over again but except this time round there were like a total of 8 peeps!
Shopped like 8-9 hours, really felt like dying there.
HEY, I think it's pretty long for any guys out there leh! NB
Probably didn't shop much, for myself.
Mainly helping friends to buy stuff, I know it's insane.
Thank god that Bangkok area ain't flooding, just some heavy showers during the evenings.
I spent around 80bucks for accessories over there, like what the fuck?!

Partied for 2 days.
absolutely LOVE the ambiance/crowd there, for the underground parties.
I believed they are called, Scratchdog and Whip.
They don't shuffle lots but boy, they sure can groove to the music!
I guess the difference is that it's much more of heavy base music rather than those in Singapore clubs, raps.
Dazzled by their appearance, which in fact almost everyone is with makeups. Ain't many fat ladies on the streets too, pretty decent sight! HAHAHA
Gays and lesbians, every where! Well, at least they don't hide their identity man.
Went to some lapsap area called Shark, and saw Jiebin! LMAO, they having lapsap tour too. HAHAAH
It's like bar top dancing or strip club, pretty much looking at the girls there dancing and changing shift every 10-15mins. The weird thing is, instead of looking at the girls on the stage, one of our guys went to approach the waitress. WTF? took her number too. WTFx2!

Love the food there.
CHEAP and SHIOK!
Every meals also tom-yum soup man. shuang daooooooo~
We even ate maggots, it's uber disgusting to touch. UBER ER XIN.
They taste like soft-shell crabs though, yummy man.
By the way, took me 15mins to pick up the courage and eat one fuckin' maggot.
DON'T JUDGE ME!

Okay leh, I know how to travel there better now!
NEXT TIME I SOLO, or I BE THE TOUR GUIDE like pengteck. HAHAHA
for the first time, I actually bought something for my mom.
Hope she likes it.
Shall post the pictures later, I'm still in office atm!

Everyone's been telling me to watch Real Steel.
I still thought it's some lame shit hence I didn't bother but now I wanna watch leh. NB
I SAW THE TRAILER, LIKE NICE ONLY!
some of my friends' blogs are damn interesting to read, gonna catch up on em'

CHEERS.

slight motivation

2011-09-08T20:01:00.002+08:00

i should be writing bout' Fashion stuff here.

i'm not confident enough to pen them down thou, even though deep inside I am Confident.

suddenly i find my life to be too mundane.

i'm gonna try out Online apparels for males - Blog Shop to be simple.

it's not a non-profit stuff, i mean i might sell stuff but not in quantity.

i expect lots of criticisms, needed that.

next, i thought of posting up for Lookbook.nu

ive been wanting to do that, just couldnt find the reason/s to.

Boon's in it,

i gonna flaunt his kicks.

He didn't work in Limited Ed for nothing, ya' know.

I need a high def CAMERA, not DSLR. any volunteers? HAHAHA

around 1 more month to bangkok.

I CANT WAIT.

well, not FATED i guess cause' lynn's out during early oct.

SUCK.

oh, she said leopard print blazer looks gay.

I DONT KNOW WHY.

SHE MAKES ME DOUBT MY TASTE.

WHAT THE HELL.

nevermind, i can find a break through some where.

till then,

enjoy life to the fullest !

i'm back

2011-08-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

how long was it?

probably less than 2 months.

another roller coaster ride I guess.

no special reason/s why I'm back here, just missed this place.

let me try to recall the list of events, um.

that total defence day, pretty cool.

being security guards for ministers, like fun only.

the guys were GREAT.

I think I met elis months back, I dont know.

spent a day with her at her fav. korean food place then dragged her for mahjong.

gonna miss it, but now shes back in australia.

oh well.

hope shes fine.

went paula's birthday party.

her friends were friendly, which made it amazing since I went there by myself.

thought it was a wonderful sight, the three best friends were back together.

I was pretty high back then, I have no idea I kept drinking with paula's siblings.

Too bad I didn't get to snap some unglam pictures, darn it!

and nicole, being the silly woman that's out of love, was pretty hilarious on that night.

I'm not really feeling the excitement even though it's been 1 year, left 1 more to go.

It's time.

I'm gonna do something, or rather start doing it since I'm done with rotting with work.

been waiting for this?

yes, indeed. I left her, again.

It's for the own good alright and after all, I did struggled.

big time, small time. no idea.

I know I didn't handle it perfectly, but I do what I must else it's gonna be draggy.

so, I'm back on track.

pardon, this was like a month++ news.

RELAX

I've been repeating a series of songs:

+ Maddi Jane

+ Ellie Goulding 'Your Song'

+ Christina Perri 'Jar of Hearts'

+ Miss A 'Love Alone'

Pretty much done.

OH, just completed Haruki Murakami - Sputnik Sweetheart. quite twisted novel I must say, gonna get more book from that author. Yummy.

I know I'm quite late, just done with City Hunter and Vampire Diaries. HAHAHA OMG I MUST SAY DAMON IS SMOKING HOT AND COOL.

I adore that kind of smirks. KILLER.

alright,

till then!

2011-07-14T07:21:00.003+08:00

dont you just love it when your itunes play songs according to your current mood?

thanks,

appreciated.

yes, finally

2011-07-14T01:19:00.001+08:00

there just isnt anyone i can talk to about this,

is there?

i just have to endure these few nights,

i will be alright.

okay, i just dont want to talk bout this.

enjoy

2011-07-09T10:55:00.001+08:00

have you ever wonder why you're reading this blog?

tell me.

2011-07-08T08:29:00.000+08:00

she is so prettyyy.

eye candy.

moments

2011-06-30T08:58:00.003+08:00

The pictures say it out.
celebrated yongjie's 23rd at mbk,
got him knocked out before 2am. WIN
then the three fuckers got knocked out after him, me boon leonel.
well, lots of peeps turned up.
hella fun man!
not much pictures here, if you're interested just hop on to facebook.
you might even get to see some explicit stuff.

his fav. doramon
bodyguards
leonel & gf
clinton & gf
max & daz
2 douchbags, darry & jason

okay, im so overjoyed after finding out her name's Cindy.
i admire her so much, so im gonna try to know her.
bless me.
not much of being an idol, just knowing new friend/s.
i like the way she take all her pictures, awesome.

great, EEEEE-lis is back.
i've booked her for many many many days!
LOVE

Game of Love

2011-06-20T18:00:00.008+08:00

Hi,
it's been long.

I was busy watching Secret Diary of a London Call Girl.
gonna thank Rina for introducing me!

freaking awesome, I totally adore dramas that revolves around the way one gender thinks of the other.
I got really bored of what to write,
so I'm gonna write on a particular topic.
it might be, oh-not-this-kind-of-crap-again.
oh. "HOW TO PLAY IT WELL"
that's the topic.

I'm not sure if I am in a good position to write this but its becoming really mundane to me. I mean, take a good look around yourself. There are so many assholes out there who are good at it. I'mma just gonna write my version, will try to make it as interesting as before.
Here goes nothing:

For a start, a fucking start.
Love and Like are totally two different worlds, heaven and earth.
Really sensitive issue there so you better know the difference. You have to like someone first before you love them, so use wisely.
Liking someone is easy, Loving isn't.
Most girls expect a lot when there's love involved.
Simply and personally, Like is vague while Love is responsibility.

I have this particularly one rule, Act like you give a damn even though you ain't
I thought it's uber cool to be super "Cool", but most girls I'd encountered wants the attention. They might probably want you to be there for them 24/7. It's not that difficult to act, right?
You will find out more bout this.

Confidence. This is the core and probably the most difficult to establish.
I'm sure this element stays the same for all self help books.
There's no model answer for this shit but all I can say is, you gonna be confident enough before you can convince/influence another.
Pretty much being a motivator. If makeover works, go for it!

It's all in the mind, all in the fucking mind. The stronger mind power will get the upper hand. Mind game, was the title. Everyone's probably good at it, but what makes one stands out? For my case, I believe it's when one ain't afraid to lose it all.

Ego. Oh can I tell you how much I love this little shit? This is probably the only one thing that ruins most dickheads out there. The best part is when you meet someone of the same freaking level or even higher.
Like a FUCK.
Don't you know there's no decent outcome if you go heads on?
Think of the bigger picture, give in.
Man, how I used to struggle so much from bowing down. I still do, though.

Even though this is a sinful topic but I'm not gonna lead you astray further. Whatever shit plans, you still need to be a gentleman and show genuine respect to a woman.
I make it a point to stick to this even though my personality totally cant click. Kinda contradicting but I hope you don't act when it comes to this part.

Remember,
when you do shit to another, someone will do the same back.
It's just a matter of time.
So when the time comes, make sure you don't regret else don't even start.

Honestly speaking, I won't encourage anyone to take on this route.
No doubt, most of us enjoy doing it. The sense of satisfaction.
Then again, do you really think you've won?
But if you're weak at heart, don't try it. Who knows you might just fall in love with every matches?
On a personal level, it's good to be norm I guess. I'm having too much drama on my side, sometimes it just pisses me off.
Then again, it's not that I'm into relationship. Don't get me wrong.
I sincerely hope that you are able handle the emotional factor of screwing up someone's life up next time when you looked back.
So many of us have actually "been there, done that" but the question is,
how many of us actually learn from it?

Peace

disclaimer: I might edit/add on some parts, be informed.

stop reading my mind

2011-06-15T07:25:00.002+08:00

im a lil disappointed when i heard it last night even though it absolutely got nothing to do with me.

its just difficult to imagine that.

i can see your maturity now, every single shit.

and im not attached.

no where close!

so nice to have you reading across the oceans!

should there be an agenda, just put your thinking cap.

it is really that simple.

er, hi

2011-06-13T08:34:00.001+08:00

for some one who's fussy about food,
and to go on a diet.
i hope that she dont faint.

mundane

2011-06-10T22:39:00.002+08:00

theres a huge difference watching a film

between your girlfriend and the girl youre chasing.

the first one, you probably dont even feel her existence or probably just a cushion or the usual kaki.

the second one, you probably want to take a look at her side view every now and then, her every reactions and you smiled to yourself, "fuck, shes really beside me!" You probably want to hold her hand or kept thinking of ways to achieve that or thinking of what to do after the movie. You know, the Plan.

thats how i feel.

where's the excitement?

none.

I still do look at her side view now and then, just to remind myself how beautiful she was.

dont be affected by me,

cause Mundane is the word i used on couples.

the usual stuff, uh huh.

perhaps im too independent, i dont even need that much attention.

time for Xmen.

and dont worry, im fine.

im heart-less, remember?

thanks

2011-06-10T12:47:00.002+08:00

im not really used to saying good stuff but

imma still thank those who showed their concern.

the smses, bbm and emails. i dont even know some of them but a huge thanks.

esp her, of course.

crossed the line.

temptation

2011-06-09T11:44:00.002+08:00

today i feel so messed up.

right now, this instant.

i have no idea what to do or even who can i speak to.

mf, even i cant counsel myself.

how do i reply/react?

i will have an answer, in fact i already had one.

but i cant be too sure.

i dont feel like telling anyone.

fucking temptations.

2011-06-09T07:14:00.001+08:00

i dont need any one of them to be mine.

well unless someone stepped over the line.

finallyyyyy

2011-06-06T21:36:00.002+08:00

i just needed to show it on my blog!

long awaited surprisezxz!

shes a different person now, look at the "hehehe"!

she never does that to me before! HAHAHA

I SHALL WAIT FOR HER CALL WHEN SHES BACK!

cheers xoxo

2011-06-06T01:53:00.002+08:00

today's the most times i got served in the game.

i wanna slit my wrist already, nb.

joking duhh.

not monday blues hopefully.

hey Sunday

2011-06-05T09:56:00.000+08:00

letter, is done.
time to clean up this messed up room!

2011-06-04T13:25:00.003+08:00

glad did i not mentioned before that it isnt about winning?

some peeps just dont get it.

sounds like me.

god, i just love to scold myself here at times.

okay, so i received a call in the morning.

2hrs session straight, power.

its too juicy so i hope my friend's okay and all's well.

wonder whats wrong with checking out whether my room is neat? but im glad that i give em the impression that im a neat fella. HAHAHA nice lehh

good day.

5th time to simlim, can make it a hot spot already.

quote from tumblr:

COME AND STOVE ME AGAINST THE WALL AND FUCK ME ALREADY

done

2011-06-03T07:35:00.004+08:00

i finally gave the 10th gift.

it was a long wait but its beautiful.

my life's in jeopardy thou, cause theres still 1year plus warranty but i broke it.

now im placing my head on the line and hopefully nothing's gonna happen to the phone.

shes got a pretty bad record of screwing up her phone.

bless me.

nonetheless, i sounded a lil pissed over the phone.

thats just me, and i probably knew that just seeing her will erase these lil fragments.

im not sure, either she gave in or she just know how to deal with me.

it was awesome seeing her anyway.

stunning.

now she makes it more harder for me to look straight at her, i didnt want to be devoured.

"do you want to be done w/ me that badly?"

i guessed not.

wait, i never really wanted to.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE,

my blazers are here.

its not as pale as i thought, so im impressed.

30bucks leh. cheap f.

my com broke down though, i feel so useless w/o it!

SUDDENLY I CANT DO ANYTHING! MF

imma buy the part/s later, diy repair.

PRO RIGHT?! hoi, i insist that i'd learnt something atleast during my 3yrs of poly. hahahaha

boon's back.

ive got a ring as a gift and his cousin gave me something too.

shocking.

shall see homies soon.

now, f off.

2011-06-01T01:40:00.002+08:00

been thinking bout it.

i guess im tired and theres no point for me to be oblivious of what youve been doing.

let that be the final.

afterwards, there wont be any reason/s or coincidental excuse to catch a glimpse of you.

okay i fell asleep.

2011-05-24T07:50:00.000+08:00

one line, one hint or even one word.

i will fight this army to get you.

2011-05-24T07:32:00.002+08:00

im beginning to write on-the-go.

i guess theres a tendency to write a huge chunk of crap on bigger screen and im feeling lazy bout it.

i have no idea if she still reads here, its been like years.

im still gonna write bout her, a really kind of close friend.

to even think about it,

this was the place i surprised her.

the lil confident me back then, came up with the idea of highlighting. it worked big time.

i caught it.

at the age of near fifteen, i was an idol of myself.

and eventually, i dropped a suicide bomb in the same year.

i probably should write until here.

i hope everything's okay.

writing on memories is kind of reminiscing.

good day

2011-05-20T00:02:00.002+08:00

oddokay, finally im settled.

thats like my second time having ayam penyet in a week, shiok!

not to mention the ultra awkward situation which i have no idea but great, im smart to play along.

my colleague was grinning and smiling throughout and i just resist! c'mon leh, i have to maintain my composure mah!

YOU THINK I WONT BE HUM 1 MEH?!

SIAOOO

dont let your imagination runs wild, its a simple dinner!

oh okay, apparently my bb got lag big time and i was forced to reset it.

i tht my draft here wont be autosaved but miraclely it was saved! hahahaha swee lah.

okay, they actually thought that i couldnt live up the quote.

know whats, working on it?! nb

anyway, my colleague damn hilarious. his church sort of demanding him to stop liking another girl, he asked them if they can convinced him, he shall do so which i totally think its bullshit.

he said something that makes sense to me,

"how do you stop a hungry man from being hungry?!"

daily

2011-05-18T02:29:00.004+08:00

like, a finally can.

Finally writing about this.

Yes, like every other bloggers, I have some blogs which i follow/stalk once a while.

not really into xiaxue stuff. shes interesting and provide good infos and cheap deals but she rants a lot so i guess following her on twitter is more than enough. LOL

dont worry, i added their links here!

while updating the links, i found out that most of my friends are using tumblr!

alright, im old-fashion and besides, blogger allows me to edit html freely!

MY CREATIVITY CAN FLOW,

if there's any.

okay here, first saw her on lookbook.

maybe her pictures caught my attention instantly, so I went to check her site out.

shes a reseller/fashionista/vege-lover/emotional fella.

thats the impression I got after reading her blog.

besides her vibrant pictures, i love the way she wrote her stuff. somehow, it brings me to her world/thoughts. sometimes its upsetting but overall, she keeps me up-to-date bout fashion.

right, stop staring at her eyes.

then, ASOS.

I think a lot of us know this site, it's not mainly for ladies.

cheap stuff thou, my colleague Jeremy introduced this site to me.

alright alright, i just get to know bout it less than half a year can!

i think theres one more, CexWorks blogger.

some Japanese explicit photographer.

HES GOT REAL SHIT THERE.

party-animal/photographer/idealist/kind-of-lapsap

like relax, there's a thing line between soft porn and art.

apparently, i can't load his site so that might need to wait.

so, im kind of hanging out at thai pubs all of a sudden.

they really love that shit, while im into the typical clubs.

but hey, its WHO you are hanging out with that makes the difference.

well, we're still young despite being nearly mid 20s.

i learnt to photoshop the pictures, look at the freaking effect!

OUTSTANDING VIBRANT COLORS.

i really cant be bothered to clear the flaws, man it's colorful!

love this.

maybe next time im gonna add Paris Hilton beside us. HAHAHA

-SEI LE (some cantonese words)

i should really go Audi fashion festival!

i think i missed all the runways already, mf.

left 1 day only.

$120 is WORTH IT.

DAMN

2011-05-17T00:04:00.000+08:00

its reacting again.

2011-05-12T16:33:00.000+08:00

Hi Elis,
If you're looking at this.
When's my next webcam session!? *stare

2011-05-10T23:07:00.000+08:00

I'll know if I miss you this much when I see you.

2011-05-10T02:33:00.002+08:00

i must say, im not really in the best of mood.

i think cause of the extreme hunger earlier on, i finished a whole loaf of bread within minutes.

insane.

i would like to think that i did something meaningful today, swimming.

OKAY, STEP BY STEP CAN.

made a good choice to dl dj kzee remix.

let's see if i can finish this before 3am.

anyhow, i've told boon about my dilemma.

im glad that he understood what im trying to say, so did jason.

boon was kinda surprised that i have actually allowed myself to be in such position.

i guess rationality failed this time round.

however i still insist that ive think too much, way too much.

ahem, stereo love is interrupting my thoughts.

okay,

then i have to make a choice.

exactly what kind of choice?

I picked, No.

its easy to make a choice if you dont think deep into it.

this time, i didnt.

watched a pretty awesome film earlier on.

it seemed like humble guys will always get the girl.

man, i can never attain that.

i'll be glad if i ever stop talking back.

okay, hy pictures are really hilarious.

had a good laugh at them.

SHES SWEET TOO.

wait, no one is seeing this.

right?

i hope you like this song as much as i do.

null is now

2011-05-09T18:35:00.002+08:00

first of all, i have absolutely no idea how to explain.

i guess it did affect me this much,

to a point.

what is this point, i dont know.

yet i do miss her, every single part of me misses her.

clearly, i dont have an answer.

don't ask me why.

it just happened.

tell me, what's the next move now?

dear,

2011-05-05T07:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah, finally done with norwegian wood novel.
This book is totally sick, so real.
For two days, I was inside their world exploring and listening.
This time round, I'm caught between right and wrong with my philosophy.
The pursue for what is right, might apparently be a wrong move.
You will fall in love with Midori, I'm sure anyone will.
I like the imaginations.

I've always admire the ability to love limitlessly.
I do that, but still with boundaries.
That's probably why I do things out of the box, sometimes backfired.
At least you tried, at least you fucking tried.
Sooo, go crazy if you're in any.
Go wild, embrace it and feel every elements of it.

Okay, maybe I'm twisted.
I'm embarrassed by most of the stuff I do,
Yet I still wanna give it a go.

This place is like a mail box,
I write the letters and dump them here.
And You, whoever you are, are my pen pal reading all my secrets.
Well not all but most of it.

Tell her,
I miss her.
Thanks.

2011-05-02T07:38:00.000+08:00

She's back, finally.
And all I want now is to see her as soon as possible.

god,
I've **** her so ****.

2011-04-11T03:37:00.000+08:00

Hi
I'm starting.

She told me to write about her.
I took awhile to think.
.
.
I've been writing about her for quite some time.
Yeah I did.
It will get messy if I really write it out now, so pardon me.

Esther aka tigger happy. Happy birthday!
Oh and I just went leonel's bday party at PH on saturday.
I knocked out after 3hours thou but heng, nothing happened during that knocked out stage. HAHAH
Well, I hoped not!

Its funny how love used to be a game to me years back.
Now, this shit makes me think twice or thrice before getting it.
I don't hate/detest it, why should anyone?
Its the only thing that can make you smile like an idiot unknowingly.
At least that works for me.
Well I didn't change that much, its probably during the J period.
I still can't bring myself harm a nice lady, never will. shant say the reason why but yes, feeling bad suck big time.

That's all today.
Someone please remind me to get a webcam this week!
Enjoy monday blues.

2011-04-04T06:46:00.001+08:00

taking a break from all my crap.

2011-04-03T09:46:00.002+08:00

shes a worrying character, with the almost-everything-is-okay surface.

been drinking on saturday,

been crazy,

been looking at girls i dont even know,

been listening to house music,

been eating junk food,

been using Fuck,

been on msn stoning,

been watching movies on Funshion.

what am i still missing out on?

superb

2011-03-31T16:35:00.002+08:00

Okay elis is driving me nuts

ALL THAT FOR, A SKYPE SESSION.

IT BETTER BE WORTH IT.

i haven seen her to A YEAR? even more! crap

oh wait, i dont even remember if i ever had a webcam session with her.

FIRST TIME.

and for more to come, i need to get a webcam.

so i just returned from Sentosa,

im glad my spaghetti turns out well.

SEE that bloody rice cooker over there? I CARRIED IT ALL THE WAY TO SENTOSA.

WTF.

heng, they said it was nice.

HENG.

i love this picnic man, all the food so nice.

too bad, the following picture is the aftermath.

im beginning to love sentosa, or rather the sun.

felt so shiok, ALIVE.

today babe count was not bad, not much bikinis thou.

i think twitter is a medium of gossips, add the correct fellas and you will get your juicy news among friends.

2011-03-31T10:01:00.000+08:00

Yes the movie I watched,
This is their theory.
"You must hurt your him/her first because only with guilt then will your love last."
Even thou I'm much of an ass, but I won't agree to such crap.
Its interesting thou, gonna find out the essence behind it.

I'm at sentosa now.
Wtf, I should be in office.
HAHAHA
COHESION.

2011-03-31T01:24:00.003+08:00

okay.

as promised, i guess.

for that FEW skating pictures on facebook from elis.

anyway, its a good/bad thing to be sick today.

pretty much a gate away from work, so i went to search for some online movie/s to watch.

came across this pre-marriage theme show, it was real crappy plot.

BUT its damn hilarious and yea, they're probably telling the audience not to.

there's this particular question they asked, i think i probably will do it.

i have always said, being faithful is a serious issue.

IM STILL YOUNG, i insist.

i will resist, i resisted tonight. DIDNT I? HAHAHA

actually i have no clue whether im, a devoted kind.

perhaps i just love to be behave naughty on the outside, and mean too.

alright, IT ALL DEPENDS i suppose.

im pretty serious if i made up my mind to settle down, not even to mention marriage which i detest it big time.

huge courage guys, huge!

2011-03-29T17:45:00.001+08:00

What's the next step?
Haha

No clue?
No plan?

I'm cool about it.
Yeah as I was saying, I saw hy message after my short nap.
So we kinda chat a while, and probably meet up at zouk tml.
She will be hopping clubs so we shall see from there.
Kopi kaki perhaps.
Anyhow, LHQ got my bb stuff!
HAHAHAH super fast.
Dunno why mine never come. Same website somemore.
Probably thank her by a date. Cheers

I don't like to feel wronged.
I will be nasty if anyone gives me shit.
Yes, don't even try and don't even bother to apologize.

Yes, I haven been blogging.
I know.
Well, who knows.

Now I really need kopi kakis.
Hanging out at night is good, even not talking.
Shall see who's willing!

this time round,i will go against my principles

2011-03-16T20:07:00.000+08:00

I am definitely missing you and loving you.
But I wouldn't tell you,
Neither would I show it out.

Let me enjoy this lil blissful moment.
At least I know that my heart's still yours,
At least I didn't weaver.

Who turned this bold man to a timid mice?
F

2011-03-15T07:19:00.000+08:00

"I am hopeless without my wife so I will get you back."
Ah, such an amazing movie.
How do one trust to such extent?
I probably cant.
I probably give try.
Anyway, its such a thrilling movie man!
"3 days before"

I've decided not to do much and wait for it to happen,
Not because I gave up but
because I didn't want to give it too much hope for disappointment.

2011-03-10T10:53:00.000+08:00

I finally understand the sole reason you left.

2011-03-08T01:35:00.003+08:00

why.

"Cause I want to get you back to my fucking life, that's why."

God should bless me with the balls to say that earlier on.

the second failure traumatized me pretty much.

screw me.

2011-03-04T01:40:00.001+08:00

i dont understand.

im hearing this song for so long, i cant find anything familiar.

misses.

2011-02-27T17:02:00.002+08:00

out with the tagboard.

last night was HIGH.

okay, enough.

sketch me your face

2011-02-26T17:27:00.002+08:00

what the f.

whats all these sadness?!

im just eating chips and chilling out in front of the com and suddenly BOOM.

this heart gets heavy for no reason.

i havent been here for a long while, ive missed typing.

ive missed typing love letters/entries.

ive missed thinking about a girl for 18 hours daily except that 6hours of nap.

ive missed smiling stupidly to myself in front of the mirror.

ive missed the silly bickering moments.

what have i been missing out?

Fx2

Fx7

speak about stm, her images are fading.

when i close my fucking eyes, i cant even get a clear view of her face like before.

and of all times, bloody itunes' playing ti amo.

and ive missed the noises in the house.

im alone, not for long but im actually home alone.

theres no horrible mom's cooking where i'll go. "not again!?"

theres no more loud TV volume from my dad.

theres no more elder sis slamming the door when shes back from work like the whole world owes her one.

theres no more Alvin Lim closing the door for privacy.

but its okay, i will get over this shit soon.

i needed time by my own.

for no reasons, or yet that are found.

im fine, yes frankly speaking i am fine.

yeah, guys like us, we're hard on the surface.

inside's all jelly.

i probably know that all along, but some guys still want to save this little privilege for that somebody.

only that somebody will know or notice it.

im absolutely done for now,

gonna prepare for Chloe's birthday.

happy 21st.

2011-02-15T07:23:00.001+08:00

I awfully like the smell of sourness.
It perks me up and turns on my engine.
Big time.

So come forget about the world,
Cause there's only you and me tonight.

2011-02-14T21:25:00.001+08:00

i will ban myself if i write any shit today.

look

2011-02-14T10:55:00.000+08:00

Went MBS last saturday, found out that I still could drink.
I really hate graveyard, its sick in the stomach.
Had fun with the homies, I think I was kissing guys instead of the models.
F IT. HAHAHA no, I'm straight you shithead.

truly, the shit still there.
Gonna contain it anyhow.
I'm addicted to BoA - I'm ok after playing audition,
SUPER CUTE LOR.
Happy Valentine's day,
14 feb.
Let me recollect what I was doing back then..

Umm,
I was aiming for hearts
And still am.

2011-02-10T13:55:00.000+08:00

First of all,
Happy birthday Alvin.
23 is nothing young or old, yet I should treasure youth.
I'm sticking to doing un-norm stuff to spice up the life, cause we only lived once!
Shall write more when I'm home.

Man. What was I thinking about soloing club by myself?
HAHAHA
But then, I'm heading to a gay club this saturday with homies.
We wanna try hitting it to at least the kind of shit gays do in clubs.
SCARED YEAH.

Alright, hi esther.
If you're looking, that is. HAHA
Wait, I always told my friends I had great fun chatting with this girl here.
Her thoughts are just, wow.
Her reaction/replies are just, lmao at times.

So, we should clear up our mess previously for the better good of the future relationships I guess.
True enough, certain closures in chapters are needed.
What if this guilt bedridden us for a really long time?
What if pushing it aside works for some of us?
Yes yes, only we have the answers. Not your friends/family/me or even any Gods up there can drop you one.

I absolutely can't contain my smiles when Lynn dropped me her wishes.
Like F, I don't care if the conv didnt continue for nuts.
Yet I keep the gladness to myself. HAHAHA
How shitty.
Love all the wishes thou,
Hope to see peeps on sat.

I shall be less rude this time round.
Hey, I'm still trying okay!
(:
Enjoy 10th feb

cny period

2011-02-06T22:09:00.003+08:00

so how's cny?

my luck's been pretty good and yes, i must be a player instead of dealer.

wait, that sounds wrong. "Player"

anyway, im on a fucking spree in mahjong. HAHAHA

im winning and winning.

Yes, any one should be afraid cause im on luck w/o lady luck.

i realized that losing 130 bucks in 3/6 mj rate is bloody noob.

how the hell did i lost 130bucks back then.

NEVER AGAIN.

TRY ME IF.. you dare. HAHAHA

im addicted to 3/6 now, i can handle that shit.

yeah, i sound so arrogant and i dont even care.

i lost like 90plus in blackjack but HENG, mj covers me back 100+ over.

damn heng.

or is it cause its february? :D

okay, i ignored all my schedules just to rot in front of the com watching movies.

"A moment to remember" kills me.

its so damn touching.

this was like the... 5th time i watched?

STILL FRESH.

sweet, too sweet.

back to work tml.

that's all.

that's all?

um.

2011-02-06T04:35:00.000+08:00

Okay.
Okay.
Okay.

So beautiful.
So beautiful.
So ****ing beautiful.

Bye

2011-02-03T14:58:00.002+08:00

cheryl's taking her own fucking sweet time to come over

and i just "ZA HU"ed.

ignore that, my winning streak still at 3 now.

HELL YEAH.

okay, HAPPY CNY EVERYBODY.

get more angbao then spend it on me on the 10th :D

truth

2011-02-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

who knows one fine day I'll write/say this.

I'll be the bloody fool that love/miss you even if you're screwing around.
Hey, but who cares.
I'm being true to myself,
at the end of the day.
I will not give a shit bout onlookers, never will.
Girl,
I fucking miss the shit.

Well then, happy cny everybody.
Ester's going to butter and we're both not cleaning our room.
HAHAHA redundant.
I need mj, cause I will not lose this cny.
Not a match.

2011-02-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

Hi.
You haven curse me today.
I needed it.

disasto

2011-02-01T02:06:00.002+08:00

dead.

i broke the rule.

screw me.

thank you.

okay, town cant satisfy my fashion desire.

im screwed.

i really hope i can find em at some fking ulu place.

OKAY BED EARLY AGAIN.

maybe not so early, roam around the net first.

bye.

2011-01-31T06:37:00.000+08:00

SLEEPY.
Don't tell me its another bad monday.
But its raining,
And I'm gonna miss someone.
I don't mind.

Good day

sweet o' sweet

2011-01-30T17:48:00.002+08:00

love and other drug's just beautiful.

the rest always go,

"that's just alvin."

and then you,

you.

you didnt see me that way.

so unfortunately,

i need you.

2011-01-29T19:54:00.003+08:00

heres the shit about liking a freelance model once,

is you get to see her awesome pretty face once in a while on facebook/magazines.

blame my naughty hand,

kept clicking next and next till

"BOOM"

my mind got fucked.

HOW THE FUCK I KNOW?

BUT okay, i can handle that despite those shit i wrote before.

i insist i could.

and fuck, i just put my blog on air in facebook again.

i would appreciate if my sister will not notice it or leave it alone.

although i dont really give much damn about anyone, its gonna feel weird if my blood-related sister/s read it.

YOU KNOW RIGHT.

yes, that was it.

cheryl's forcing me to go public with twitter.

since i decline to follow or let her follow me, i should go public.

HAHAHAH

the bloody bots are flooding the tagboard every now and then, screw em.

ill remove the tagboard soon!

now, im going town.

say nothing

come, kill now.

2011-01-27T01:48:00.003+08:00

TSK, F MYSELF.

damn it, is she sick?

ven told me she's sick, although i have no idea what kind of sick she meant.

i hope not the real falling sick.

crap,

kill me.

2011-01-25T19:21:00.000+08:00

I'll nap till 3am.
Night.
Have a great evening

i dont exist today

2011-01-25T04:53:00.002+08:00

you know,

i dont know.

im so tempted to just, bloody view her every shit.

BUT, I CANT.

you know what,

just forget that i actually exist on 25 January 2011.

i didnt wrote all these shit,

neither did i miss anybody in particular.

aw f.

i got night duty later on, wont be home wont be online.

life's good,

except for the missing part.

good night, i shall nap during office hours.

do i look like i am joking?

2011-01-24T22:06:00.000+08:00

Okay I've always told myself to be true.

I miss Lynn.
Like a fucking much,
Like endless.
And I can't convinced myself that I'm not.
Now having said that,
I know you, or anyone else will think I'm a loser,
that I can't move on.

Crap, even that.
I still gonna fucking say it again and let my ego eat it up,
I fucking miss Lynn.
writing the exact name was so forbidden,
but I couldn't care less.

Now, take it hard.
Ego

2011-01-24T17:43:00.000+08:00

I must be a bad liar,
Cause' I can't even lie to you about this.

Oh man,
I'm running out of mojos to write anything.
This suck.
Come inspirations,
Come.

2011-01-24T15:22:00.001+08:00

too young,

too young.

the world is too huge,

get it.

okay wheelock time.

2011-01-23T05:33:00.001+08:00

hey answer my prayer/s now.

i quote myself

2011-01-21T14:49:00.000+08:00

"How bout, out of so many things that could affect me,
out of the numerous girls, out of those I fancy.
Out of them, there's You who stands out."

2011-01-21T00:45:00.001+08:00

I wrote you hundred letters I will never send

i dont care

2011-01-19T15:28:00.000+08:00

some shit,
you will just smile uncannily.

I was praying for faulty harddisk to work,
and it did.
was finding warcraft files for chloe.
bah, curiosity kills the cat.
I wanted to find out how shitty I looked years back,
so in the midst of it,
I saw the picture of the neoprint.

Yeah, I felt like shit.
Those smiles she had, were amazing.
something any guy will die for.
It was deadly, even now.

screw it now,
I want to know her again.
Idc whether I'm gonna get a reply I wanted
Idc whether shes attached again
Idc if I sound immature
Idc if I realized that this will be a stupid post
Idc if I have to get another 20 gifts
Idc if I get any shit for my birthday

Tell me I just sleep-typed.
Well,
I don't care.

2011-01-18T07:45:00.001+08:00

I am afraid of marriage.
very much.
It all comes down to commitment.
Just watched two adultery movies earlier on, none of em had good endings.
F.
Engulfed by lust and temptations.
I got to be thinking too much.

I'm beginning to feel responsible, due to office work.
well not much of a choice right.

HAHAHA F what I wrote at the start.
Damn retarded.
Okay imu. Rest time over!